Depression

So not only has it felt like everything and everyone in my life has turned on me. I was trying to plan a trip to Fairbanks and ultimately Barrow, only to find that most of the cool snuggly animal tours require a "2-person minimum." Could my life POSSIBLY get any more pathetic? Could I PLEASE be more lonely? Can someone PLEASE emphasize how incredibly alone I am in this world? Because it certainly hasn't hit me yet.